First I will begin by simply saying watch the video I share below as I don’t wish to spoil it after the video with my thoughts and you bypassed the video. So, watch it first and then proceed to continue reading.
Amy Grant mentions this prayer and I wrote it down to be sure I quote it correctly. “God lead me today to those I need and those that need me and let something I do have eternal significance.”
What a beautiful prayer. It got me to stop and think… I already know that those that come into our lives come for a reason be it short or long seasons. What never occurred to me was the fact that I might have been needed in their lives. I always saw that people come in my life that I might need for however long a season and for a reason. It never occurs to me that others might need me. I give all that I can but I never seen it as meeting a need in their lives. Even though I have done just that be it money, food, clothes, a ride to places. I just saw I had the means to help and was able to. I have been told a little what difference I have made but it just didn’t click until Amy Grant shared her prayer she prays on the video Dinner Conversations.
I love to help others and I never seen it as I was needed it is just in me to help and be compassionate towards others. I have seen on the other side is that when I need help I actually don’t know how to ask for it and struggle to accept it. I mean I will take the help but I feel the need to repay it back if that makes sense. Mostly nit wanting to be a burden to others. Yet when I help others they probably feel the same way. It is why we are here to help each other and hare the wonderful goodness of a risen Savior.
I always felt like I was a burden to others. So, I never saw that I was needed. I have a great deal of issues going on work wise that just makes you wonder what people are thinking. It has also started to affect my health and I have possible surgery coming soon. It has given me much to think about in the few days that I learned and finally got answers as of Tuesday what is going on and see things in a different light.
I just saw months of endless hatred and idol gossip. I felt how much my body was wearing very quickly by lack of help and not being able to ask for help or receiving help when I need it so I stopped asking. I am now very sick and nothing cancerous but weak and severity of pain.
I missed that I was spiritually beginning attacked by distractions of this or that going on. I missed the devil using others to come at me and they were his vessels. I have seen now what I missed and that prayer open my eyes to the one thing I never got was someone needs me. I see where I can make a difference despite all these past months and hopefully working to get me fixed that I can help.
I have refocused and seeing clearly what I couldn’t see in the midst of the storm. Oh, the storm is still going but I can see clearly now past the distractions of others causing chaos and all because of satan. Sometimes we just miss it and it happens very softly and quietly that before we know it, it is loud and screaming at us.
I have seen the lies and two-faced people even from those claiming to be a fellow Christian. It has made me see their untrust worthiness and not to mistake their kindness as being true.
I am now going to take that prayer and use it myself as a reminder that I am needed by others. Don’t mean to get personal but this is my journey and this is what needed to happen for me to get to this point. I share in hopes Amy Grant’s prayer may reveal something to you as it did to me out were missing or not seeing or lack there of.
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